Electroconvulsive Therapy

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The End Is Near…

I have to stop. Fourteen treatments are, for me, more than enough. The next time I see my doctor I am going to pretty much plead with her that I stop the treatments. The treatments themselves aren’t exactly fun but they aren’t bad either. The problem is the side-effects. My memory is absolutely shot. My wife […]

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Still Going…

It has been over a month since my last post. I’ve had five more treatments in that time and I can honestly state that I’ve yet to see any major improvement. After one of the treatments I woke up with the taste of blood in my mouth. Somehow, my doctor doesn’t know how it happened, my […]

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Bilateral ECT #1

Yesterday I had ECT treatment #8. #6 and #7 were abnormally difficult. The treatments themselves were run of the mill but the day following each treatment I experienced an almost unbearable level of anxiety. I had trouble breathing. I couldn’t concentrate. Beads of sweat ran down my neck even though I was absolutely safe in my home. […]

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Depression Kills People?

Cancer kills people. Heart disease kills people. HIV/AIDS kills people. Depression kills people? I recently attempted to describe a depressive episode to a close friend. I told her I was beginning to doubt that I’d ever find my way out, that I was spiralling out of control. She said something to me that I had […]

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Treatments 3 & 4

Before my treatment (#4) this morning I spent about ten minutes with one of my doctors. I told him that I have not yet noticed any type of change; nothing about the depression or suicidal ideation have abated. He told me that this is to be expected; the benefits of brief-pulse, unilateral ECT are cumulative. It is […]

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A Personal Description of Suicidal Ideation

I’ve long debated whether it would be beneficial to describe how I experience depression. I can think of two reasons to make the attempt: People with similar experiences need to know that they are not alone. People with little to no experience with depression should understand what the worst of depression can be like. Too many times […]

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Treatment #2

There is not much to say about the second treatment. It was identical to the first with the exception that my anxiety level was much lower. That said, I was still worried. My heart rate as the anesthesia took hold was 120 bbm. I don’t think that is going to change; there are always risks involved […]

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My First ECT Treatment

I survived. Apparently I’ve retained the ability to write (how well I write remains to be seen – but that was always the case). Let’s get the important stuff out of the way early: I experienced almost zero pain. Aside from a couple of needle sticks (a blood draw and an IV) the entire treatment was […]

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